devastated

in a twist of mind...feelings that so surreal. I knew what the right thing to do...but just can't let go, though i don't have the right to have it from him. Let me be an evil for just a moment and have that happiness for a while. I'm not a pure angel but I won't be an evil forever...I'm only human...a stupid one maybe...I don't care anymore. I will end up devastated...maybe my soul will die once again...till then.